caught in the past

Memories flow through my head so fast
I hardly have a chance to replace them
my own words keep me awake at night
as I wrestle and fight when the dark
meets the light. I heard you call out to
me and danced to our favorite song.
I laughed and cried equally to the tune
of sadness. Why? I just want to know
why? Did it hurt? Could you hear me
begging? Could you understand that
I could not save you? I tried, I really
tried. Why did you keep your eyes open
when you died in my arms? I knew you
were brave, did you want to face death
like you faced life? Close your eyes my
dear, close your eyes. You begged to die,
you fought to live. You tried, I tried.
I'm sorry that I could not save you.
I am so so sorry.